The Dream I don't want to happen

hahaha...

So...

Here it goes..

My dream started when I was sleeping...

hehehe...

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okayy..

uhmmm...

its in a festival...

and i am one of the persons behind the festival..

you can say that i am in the committee...

then My best friend in the story..

i mean in the dream..

is/was my crush!!!!

(in reality and in dreams that is)

gosh!!!

and then..

i think...

I am the one helping him get his loved one..

which is a girl i know in reality..

so...

I dont like the outcome of the dream..

there was like i dont know what you call it..

but in a stage..

its like a dedication booth..

so...

i told my crush *slash* best friend..

to confess...

(OMG!!! I am sooo like a martyr..)

I feel like one...

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in that dream...

i feel like happy for him...

but..

sad for myself...

I pity seing myself like that...

hahaha...

that wont happen...

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coz...

maybe one day...

ill be doing that same thing...

on him or on somebody else!!!

Thats reality right???

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anyway...

he confessed to the girl....

and he got loved back!!!

ouch!!!

now they are together..

(in the dream)

and here I am waiting!!!

J~K!!!

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So..

My crush *slash*  best friend...

will soon be in college...

hehehe...

(this is not in the dreams anymore)

so...

i am already starting to get rid of these feeling!!!!

those creepy feelings...

hahaha..

i cant explain those...

hahaha...

thats why i dont want to see him!!!

at school...

because i feel something i dont feel about any other boys...

Though he's not the only crush I have!!!

(Is that being unfaithful??)

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anyway...

we will be far from each other...

so...

I think i like what will happen...

its not like...

i dont like having crush on him...

or i dont like to see him anymore...

i like the feeling...

but...

in this way..

i'll be able to forget those feelings and be happy to be friends with him...

hehehe...

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WHY do i have a crush on him????

well..

he's gay!!!

not gay - gay!!!!

Gay as in happy and gay!!!

hehehe...

and he is very confident....

and i think he can beat me in anything i will do!!!

(I just feel it!!!)

hahaha...

just saying!!!

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I like talking to him!!!

Uhhmmm...

this is like major confession!!!!

hahaha...

but...

its more like...

hi...

i have a crush on you...

so goodbye!!!!

thinggy!!!

coz...

im already starting to forget having crush on him....

hehehe...

but..

i think..

its not a goodbye!!!

its just a see you when i see you...

coz i dont want to say goodbye to him...

he's a very nice friend to have....

hehehe...

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Well..

Im just being mature about this!!!

heheh...

its not like...

I love him....

hahha...

NO way!!!

not yet feeling those tings!!!

hahaha...

(though maybe someday....

someone will be lucky enough to be loved by me..)

hehehe..

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So...

this is just soooo random...

hahahha..

Im here ranting stuffs...

hehehe..

thats why you call this a blog right???

its like an online diary!!

hehehe...

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is there such thing as unrequited Crush??

hahha..

that's funny..

coz thats what I feel right now while writing these!!!

its like in the dramas...

hahaha...

before the guy knew that the girl loves him...

the girl is already avoiding him to forget him...

hahaha....

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i dont know if its un-unrequited~!!!

and i dont like to know....

that would change everything!!!!

it will be hard!!!

hahaha...

Just wanna be friends..

thats all...

hahahha...

moving on to the next target!!!

have to find a new one na lang!!!

hehehe...

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well...

if he requests me to still have a crush on him...

I might!!!

hahahha...

its like in the dramas!!!!

hahahha...

it won't happen...

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really....

my imaginations going wild...

hahahha....

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heheeee....

oh...

and I asked him to read this...

hahaha...

Its just to tell him...

hehehe...

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for like 2 years!!!!

I hid it from him...

so now you know...

if you have a secret...

and you want to tell it to somebody...

you can tell it to me...

I could keep your secret for about my whole life...

hahaha...

just like some of the secrets my friends has...

I never told it to anyone.....

hehehe...

though some of their secrets...

because I never talked about it....

I forgot what the secret is!!!

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Isnt it very amazing....

how one conversation started from a dream...

then talks about the crush...

then ends in keeping secrets...

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You see how we people can connect those things...

by just our thoughts...

Its amazing....

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Sugoiiiii~~~~~!!!!!

hahha...

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Tagalog:

Antagal ko na ring hindi nakakapagsalita ng japanese ah!!! hehehe....

1st tym ko magtagalog sa blog ko!!!

cherish the moment....

ngayon lang ako magtatagalog!!!

hahaha...

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till next time!!!